Lotus

June 4th and the night is fading

How am I escaping?

My reasons don't need explaining

Eight months till the Pisces season changes

Why's this Gemini hating?

Know you thought my career right now would be failing

But my ship won't stop sailing

You talk about God when you have a God complex

I think you're the one that needs saving

I was under the spell and now my spirit's awakened

My life can't be controlled by no pagan

So I don't know why you came in

We went from 100 down to naught, and yes, it is all your fault

Your name weren't popping until I worked with you and added a whole lot of s-s-s-s

Thief

And you know what it means

La-la-la, la-la, la

Selling lies, selling dreams

Thief

Thief

Got no shame, no pride, why do you lie, why do you lie?

Why do you steal? Why do you spill blood and then go hide?

Why do you take the rule book from people that hurt you and use it as a guide?

I'm lucky that I got out, now it's a shame, though I really feel sorry for your wife

June 15th, and my brain is fucking fried

This person I've known my whole life coming like the devil in disguise

My jaw was on the floor, my eyes never been so wide

But I quickly found the door the moment I realised you a

Thief

And you know what it means

La-la-la, la-la, la

Selling lies, selling dreams

Thief

Thief

Making me feel like I was the guest, but I paid for that jet

When I think back to it, it's a joke, but we know there's truth in jest

Your company going down the hill, thank God I never signed no deal

I'm tryna forgive myself, I don't need to forgive you, so I can heal

Years of living on eggshells

No one can believe that you meant well

I lost part of myself in the process

Can't bring back those dead cells

Financial exploitation

Emotional exploitation

Calculated and conceited manipulation, you a

Thief

And you know what it means

La-la-la, la-la, la

Selling lies, selling dreams

Thief

Thief

I sit and think, "What did I do?" but that's what abusers do

Make you think you're crazy and second guess your every move

Psychological mental abuse will leave more than a bruise

Will leave more than scars

June 20th, I was torn apart

Therapist asking what's on my mind

Huh, where do I start?

I been in survival mode

Banging my drum in tribal mode

Why you so obsessed with me?

I bet you wishing that I would fold

I never listened when I was told

And I was told you a

Thief

And you know what it means

La-la-la, la-la, la

Selling lies, selling dreams

Thief

Thief

Thief

And you know what it means

La-la-la, la-la, la

Selling lies, selling dreams

Thief

Thief

As I walk this wicked ground

Keep me away from the Devil's palm

I am the-

How dare you?

I was shutting down the world and it scared you

Can't hold a girl down that is this bad

Shape nice with my nails and my hairdo

Not the type that will trip off nostalgia

Talk nice, but my silence is louder

Spend 'nuff, but my finances louder

I'm not the type to abuse all my power

Realness in the village I come from

All my dargs gotta sleep with a muzzle

You can move shapes around all you want

But know I'm the missin' piece to the puzzle

As I walk this wicked ground

Keep me away from the Devil's palm

I am the-

Can't ever forget when the shit stayed flooded

Niggas didn't believe in my hustle

Could've drowned but I stayed with the mic

Why you niggas all bark, no bite?

They obsessed with my genius plan

And that's being as free as I can

They want you to stop, then they leave you to rot

But that's just not my frequency, man

As I walk this wicked ground

Keep me away from the Devil's palm

As I walk this wicked ground

Keep me away from the Devil's palm

I am the light

Andnantanga mna mfanaka

Anzodlala nabantwan

I am the light

Bonke now baqhwabizandla

Neentaka zichomi zam

Number one is play your position

Don't trust all the hands that you shake

If I put the wrong code in the system

Won't be no permanent change

Number two, don't take it personal

This place is infested with snakes

Don't get caught in your own trap

Every bad breed has a good trait

Number three, take care of yourself

Be vigilant, mind who you help

You pray you can make it heaven

And they're 'tryna drag you to hell

Number four, don't react to a clone

Don't be the one throwing stones

Never eat with the hyenas

'Cause they will look at you as bones

Number five, keep the business away from the family

Sibling rivalry's vicious

It's meant to be you and them guarding the blood

Protecting the family business

Six- don't quit

Keep building it brick by brick

Takes a million to send to prison

A million to get you a house in the sticks

As I walk this wicked ground

Keep me away from the Devil's palm

As I walk this wicked ground

Keep me away from the Devil's palm

I am the light

Andnantanga mna mfanaka

Anzodlala nabantwan

I am the light

Bonke now baqhwabizandla

Neentaka zichomi zam

Ndiyeke

Bheka mina phezkomhlab

Ndiyeke

Emazwen igamalam (I am the light)

Andnantanga mna mfanaka

Anzodlala nabantwan (I am the light)

Bonke now baqhwabizandla

Neentaka zichomi zam

Ahem

Yep

Mic testing, one-two, one-two, okay, mm-mm (Yeah, take your time, here we go)

Who's that creepin’ in my window? (Who?)

I get a hot flash whenever the wind blows (Swish)

Nothing to my name now and everybody knows (Yeah)

When I'm in need of cash, I go down to the bingo (Bingo)

Last night, I asked Jenny for a quid (Please)

This is the fifth time I'm used to taking the piss (I am)

A bottle of Rio and some chicken and chips

In my fuck-me-up pumps and my Winehouse quiff (We love you, Amy)

Who’s that knocking at the front door? (It's the mailman)

Bills, bills, please no more (No more)

I'm twenty-something young with my priorities straight (Yeah)

I need to buy a booze and I need to buy a draw (I do)

This summer, I'm going out every night (Yeah)

Anyone can get it, I ain't scared of a fight (What you looking at?)

You can be down or be on the other side (True)

But this is my idea of the perfect life (Alright)

Livin' out your wildest dreams, yeah, we're just young and dumb

No responsibilities, don't care for anyone

Who’s that over there givin’ it the big 'un? (Who?)

Sorry, officer, I don’t want to go to prison (Sorry)

I know that I was taught but I probably didn't listen (Yup)

But taught myself to fire when I needed ammunition (That's right)

I taught myself to sing and I taught myself to shout (La-la)

I taught myself how to get by and go without (Easy)

I taught myself to make a proper English breakfast (Hash browns)

'Cause I’m a little teapot, short and stout (I am)

I'm that girl all alone in the crowd (That's me)

'Cause all of you's are followers and do it for the clout (Yeah, yeah)

I can't afford to be what everybody's on

The only way I can afford is if you do a discount (Give me a bargain)

Next summer, I'll probably be overseas

I speak a lot of French, oui oui oui

Mate, you're just a hater 'cause my future's bright

And this is my idea of the perfect life

Livin' out your wildest dreams, yeah, we're just young and dumb

No responsibilities, don't care for anyone

Dance like there's no one around, yeah, it's just you and me

We don't care for finer things 'cause love is all we need

Yeah

So don't be lookin' at my face weird

I am somebody that they feared

I just wanna play my bass here

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say

Bet you never seen a young black woman so fly

Sim-Simma's arrived, got the heart of a lion, my Nigerian pride

Everybody scatter, scatter, they say that the task force is waitin' for me outside

Yo, is you really down for the ride? If I get cuffed, know I dedicated my life

Gun fire, ra-ta-ta-ta, if it gets to kickin' off, will you go dey my?

Will you go dey my side? Give me stainless gold

Think it's the time to finally take my throne

Forget that lane, true, I made my own

I got the power in me, not afraid no more

Is the world gonna keep up?

Clear to see they can't do what she does

Come on, follow the leader

Can't deny the truth we givin' to you through your speaker

Ooh, don't break your neck

Lookin' for somethin' like this

You will never find somethin' like this

The way I skill them, they gon' give me life sentence

Ooh, don't break your neck

Huh, huh, don't break your neck

Lookin' for somethin' like this

And you will never find somethin' like this

Understand I'm Lauryn in her prime, when you see me

The Ras with me, see the locs dem swingin'

I roll up in this bitch, lookin' Nefertiti

Better kiss the ring when you see me

I ain't even scraped the surface from the power that's within me

Couldn't get here without us puttin' up a good fight

This shit is never what is seems, look at them like, "What do you mean, nigga?"

We just had a dream and a push-bike

Mama said that it will happen in good time

I was strugglin' to run it on my last legs, said I'll never quit until I take my last breath

I was down on my luck, past tense

Now it's champagne reception, smart dress

Outta my hands, it's God's plan

And with these blessings, I try to bless who I can, go

Ooh, don't break your neck

Lookin' for somethin' like this

You will never find somethin' like this

The way I skill them, they gon' give me life sentence

Ooh, don't break your neck

Huh, huh, don't break your neck

Lookin' for somethin' like this (ooh)

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say, that's my superpower

We don't care for what they say (that's my superpower)

She bad in that stiletto, I heard she from the ghetto

Ain't nothing like your average, she on a different level

You think you're who he feeling? Hahaha, I'm screaming

Don't interrupt my song, okay bitch, carry on

I thought the world of you, you thought the worst of me

I'm rogue from head to toe, my steez is rock 'n' roll

You see my London girls, do it like so, wasting my time is a big no, no

If you ain't gonna move, you should probably go home

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug

I've almost had enough

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug, whoo!

Don't make me pull the plug

My time is of importance, her ego on enormous

Like you didn't know I is that girl, I am an electric black girl

I'm not the one to test, I can't take disrespect

So pipe down with all that chest, my actions speak, so I always say less

I'm in too deep when it comes to this music shit

They all wanna know who I'm moving with

Just know the brave survive, maybe that's why I feel so alive

Bad gyal do it like so, wasting her time is a big no, no

If you ain't gonna move, you should probably go home

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug

I've almost had enough

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug, whoo!

Don't make me pull the plug

My lightning strike

Need to keep my vision bright

If I lose it and I kick you out of sight

For the love of my life, I will put up any fight

I think I've had enough

Don't make me pull the plug

My lightning strike

Need to keep my mind straight

If I lose it and I put you in your place

Nobody can control

The movement of a flame

I think I've had enough

Don't make me pull the plug

I think I've had enough

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug

Don't make me pull the plug

Hello?

Hello?

Twin, wagwan?

Where are you? And how's Mum?

Wait, hold on

Why don't you phone Mum?

Long time I ain't heard from you

Couldn't get one word from you

Duh, that's why I just phoned, sorry

I spoke to Mum on her earth strong

What? Eight months ago?

Don't try that, it's me every day that she hears from

Arthritis in her right leg

Am I right in saying you see no wrongs?

It's like the woman won't relax

I already told her, quit the nurse job

I said I'll put her on a wage

What more can I say? If she just wants to work, what?

Well, you can't replace her son with money

Yo, are you even in the country?

Of course, I'm never in the country

And it's called a "world tour" funnily

And all you hit me for is money

Mm, well, some of us ain't got it like that

And that's not true, I call to check on you

And you say you'll hit me right back

Then you're gone for months

But it's nice that you finally called for once

"For once"?

Yes, "for once"

Stop acting surprised (you're saying "for once"?)

You're saying "for once"?

When do you ever call me?

Alright

Distance in the dark

I feel we've grown apart

If you want greener grass

You have to water where you are

Truth is I just been burning bridges

Finding women, hurting siblings, left me tired of winning

Found some people, but they weren't my niggas

(What? Even Jay?) That's another day

I've been in the club where I drink the liquor

Working through the night, but I'm working with it

Something 'bout our ends I'm missing

'Cause the mountaintop it ain't so fulfilling

Mm, nah, I hear you

And I been worried about how you've been coping with it

There's one of you, but there's two of us

And I've been in need of my brother's love

But that life ain't sustainable, so don't lose yourself

And how's your health?

I have my days where I drift away

And see Granny's face, and wanna trade places

That's normal, ain't it? (Not really)

If she heard that, she'll turn in her grave

That woman loved you, no one above you

I low-key felt you were the favourite

Rah, that was mad

That was crazy

Oi, that woman, una

God rest her soul

Distance in the dark

I fear we've grown apart

If you want greener grass

You have to water where you are

On a real, twin

I really don't know much about your lifestyle, or what comes with it

But I know you, so it's weird to feel like I can't phone you

I go to work and they play your songs

And my co-workers ain't got no clue that you're my family

And your sister I'm proud to be

So when I hear you talk on what you're going through

It breaks my heart into two pieces

It's like life's got two meanings

Three series and four seasons

I hope you find your reasons

I found mine and found pure weakness

Temptation like the group

And I'm so high, I'm on the moon

But then I'm so low, I'm on a stoop

Bro, please come home soon

But I'm at home when in the booth

But I can't cuddle on this tune

Drums don't know me like you

Keys just lock me in the room

Oh my God, you're such a artist

What does that mean?

In laymen's terms, nothing in-between

We're the same but different

And we came up different

I had to take Dad's whippings

Then had to shake up prison

Yeah, well, I had to hold mum crying

So all that pain I ain't buying

Yo, just step outside yourself for one sec

You ain't the only one that's got shit suppressed

I ain't the only one that's got shit suppressed?

You ain't the only one that's got an intellect

And I only phoned you because

I only phoned you 'cause

What?

I only phoned you 'cause I need a friend

My family is my armour

Through the muddiest water, water, water, water

When you clean off sins and karma

You get the muddiest water, water, water, water

Distance in the dark

I feel we've grown apart

If you want greener grass

You have to water where you are

I was lonely making an album, attempted it four times

Lost my confidence and you wouldn't believe why

Sitting in the studio with my head in my hands

Thinking what am I to do with this music I can't write?

Team falling apart and I'm caught in the crossfire

You selling me lies and saying I must buy

Messing with my mental that I've worked hard to protect

It's causing pains in my chest, so it's best that I cut ties

Tryna make an album means baring my whole truth

Unpacking the fuckery I'm trying to heal through

Imagine telling it all to somebody you trust

Then that same somebody then holds it against you

Hmm

It's almost like that somebody's trying to end you

I was lonely making an album

'Til I realized I'm all I needed to get through

So lonely

To be alone

A race against time

But take it slowly

Playing on my weakness

And that's unholy

I'll pray for you

God is who we both need

I was lonely making an album, I ran into mad blocks

Tryna find that girl everybody's a fan of

Couldn't even say what I thought was good anymore

Whether I'm hands on or hands off

Maybe music just isn't meant for me anymore

Maybe I'll erase all these memories from my core

Maybe I'll do more acting and less rapping

'Cos I don't even know who I'm meant to be anymore

Lonely making an album is tackling all doubt

I'm used to making it with-, can I do it without?

No figure of speech, I get it by any means

No sucker is in my genes, yet still having more doubts

On top of that, I'm dealing with somebody who's obsessed with more clout

I was lonely making an album 'til I realised my story's all I can pour out

So lonely

To be alone

A race against time

But take it slowly

Playing on my weakness

And that's unholy

I'll pray for you (pray, pray for)

God is who we both need

I'm spinning, up away

I'm spinning, up away

I'm spinning, up away

Up away, up away

I'm spinning (spinning), up away

I'm spinning, up away (spinning, spinning)

I'm spinning, up away (oh, I'm spinning, spinning, spinning)

Up away, up away

Spinning, up away (spinning, spinning)

I'm spinning, up away ((oh, I'm sstill spinnig)

I'm spinning, up away (oh, I'm spinning, spinning)

Up away, up away (oh, I'm)

I'm spinning, up away

I'm spinning, up away

I'm spinning, up away

Up away, up away

I'm spinning, up away

I'm spinning, up away

What would you do if all of your pennies were limitless?

Or do you spend any frivolous

All eyes are on you to cover the damages

Would you be generous managing?

Would you be calm or be panickin'?

Does the pound turn us to savages?

How do we weigh up or balance this?

How would you feel, what would you do if your life was covered in bandages?

If you had a family of four, and the kids wanted things you could never afford

Bailiffs are bangin' the door, parents are losin' they memory

Your brother is in penitentiary, he writin' to you, but he ain't there mentally

How would you feel, what would you do if you didn't know your identity?

The love of your life is wantin' to see you, but work is drainin' your energy

What would you say to your baby girl when she ask you about white supremacy?

This generation is fuckin' the kids up, and I'm just providin' the remedies

How would you feel, what would you do if you had to write "In loving memory"?

We all afraid of seein' the casket make it a home in the cemetery

The truth is hard to swallow, the truth is God still loves your enemies

I know the story of Jonah, I know I come off a different aroma

I know my mind is a textbook that they can learn from

Even though I ain't got a diploma

Why are we waitin'? What is the hold up?

Ain't no one askin' to live in our shoes

From the same place, but different views

Askin' for help was never the move

Too much pride and too much to lose, it's true

There's a light at the end, carry on

You and I found the break to be strong

So how would you feel, what would you do

If you thought the world was against you?

You didn't talk to an angel, told him you needed some guidance

You was sufferin' in silence, now you're on a desert island

Feeling hopeless, lifeless

Your body contract in self-doubt, and that is a horrible virus

Is this an uncurable climate? Everybody's on autopilot

But when they get a diamond in the rough with minimal effort to find it

It's lonely at the top, but not in the way they described it

Who do you pity, or side with?

Who do you ride for, who do you slide with?

What is the saying, you rackin' up mileage for?

Can you see past all my minor flaws?

Are you the type to abide the law?

Are you the kind to be riskin' your life?

What is the cause you been dyin' for?

Always believed it was bigger than me

Even when blurry and I couldn't see, yeah

God said I'm the best for the job, I agree

Now I'm his promise, nothing is free

Would you still do it with no guarantee?

You're either a savin' grace or you're a disturbance

What do you do, and giving you purpose

It's not the fact that you're not here

It's the way you disappear

It's not the fact that you're not here

It's the way you disappear

And who am I when you're no longer here?

Yeah

There's a light at the end, carry on

You and I found the break to be strong

Nowhere near, nowhere near

Nowhere near we used to be

Nowhere near, nowhere near

Nowhere near we used to be