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I'll be taking flowers to the cemetery of my heart

♪

For all of my lovers in the present and in the dark

Every anniversary, I'll pay respects and say I'm sorry

For they never stood the chances if they could

When no one knows what it's like to be us

♪

I've never seen the sky this color before

It's like I'm noticing everything a little bit more

Now that all the dust has settled

I rebut all my rebuttals

No one knows what it's like to be us

♪

Strangers by nature

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Strangers by nature

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Will I ever get there?

Oh, I hope that someday I'll learn

To nurture what I've done

♪

Ooh-ooh, ooh

Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh

Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

Ooh-ooh, ooh

Ooh-ooh

Alright then, I'm ready

There ain't no gold in this river

That I've been washing my hands in forever

I know there is hope in these waters

But I can't bring myself to swim

When I am drowning in this silence, baby, let me in

Go easy on me, baby

I was still a child

Didn't get the chance to

Feel the world around me

I had no time to choose what I chose to do

So, go easy on me

♪

There ain't no room for our things to change

When we are both so deeply stuck in our ways

You can't deny how hard I've tried

I changed who I was to put you both first

But now I give up

Go easy on me, baby

I was still a child

Didn't get the chance to

Feel the world around me

Had no time to choose what I chose to do

So go easy on me

I had good intentions

And the highest hopes

But I know right nowㅤ

It probably doesn't even show

Go easy on me, baby

I was still a child

I didn't get the chance to

Feel the world around me

I had no time to choose what I chose to do

So go easy on me

Mmh, mmh

♪

My little love

I see your eyes widen like an ocean

When you look at me so full of my emotions

I'm finding it hard to be here, sincerely

I know you feel lost, it's my fault completely

Tell me you love me

I love you a million percent

I don't recognise myself in the coldness of the daylight

So I ain't surprised you can read through all of my lies

I feel so bad to be here when I'm so guilty

I'm so far gone, and you're the only one who can save me

Oi, I feel like you don't love me

Why do you feel like that?

Do you like-like me?

You know, mommy doesn't like anyone else like I like you, right?

I'm holding on (barely)

Mama's got a lot to learn (it's heavy)

I'm holding on (catch me)

Mama's got a lot to learn (teach me)

Mummy's been having a lot of big feelings recently

(Like how?)

Just, like, hang on lemme-, my fingers are trapped

Like, um, I feel a bit confused

(Why?) I don't know

And I feel like I don't really know what I'm doing

(Oh, at all?)

At all

And that would make me go

My little love

Tell me, do you feel the way my past aches?

When you lay on me, can you hear the way my heart breaks?

I wanted you to have everything I never had

I'm so sorry if what I've done makes you feel sad

I love your dad 'cause he gave you to me

You're half me and you're half daddy

Oh

I'm holding on (barely)

Mama's got a lot to learn (it's heavy)

I'm holding on (catch me)

Mama's got a lot to learn (teach me)

♪

I'm having a bad day, I'm having a very anxious day

I feel very paranoid, I feel very stressed

Um, I have a hangover, which never helps, but

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I feel like today is the first day since I left him that I feel lonely

And I never feel lonely, I love being on my own

I always preferred being on my own than being with people

And I feel like maybe I've been, like, overcompensating

Being out and stuff like that to keep my mind off of him

And I feel like today I'm home, and I wanna be at home

I just wanna watch TV and curl up in a ball and

Be in my sweats and stuff like that, I just feel really lonely

I feel a bit frightened that I might feel like this a lot

Cry your heart out, it'll clean your face

When you're in doubt, go at your own pace

Cry your heart out, it'll clean your face

When you're in doubt, go at your own pace

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When I walk in a room, I'm invisible

I feel like a ghost

All my friends keep on tellin' me that

This feeling won't last, mm

I can't get no relief, I'm so tired of myself

I swear I'm dead in the eyes

I have nothin' to feel no more, I can't even cry

♪

When will I begin to feel like me again?

I'm hanging by a thread

My skin's paper thin, I can't stop wavering

I've never been more scared

Cry your heart out, it'll clean your face

♪

When you're in doubt, go at your own pace

♪

Cry your heart out, it'll clean your face

♪

When you're in doubt, go at your own pace

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When I wake up, I'm afraid of the idea

Of facin' the day

I would rather stay home on my own

Drink it all away

Please stop callin' me, it's exhausting

There's really nothin' left to say

♪

I created this storm, it's only fair I have to sit in its rain

♪

When will I begin to feel like me again?

I'm hanging by a thread

My skin's paper thin, I can't stop wavering

I've never been more scared

Cry your heart out, it'll clean your face

♪

When you're in doubt, go at your own pace

♪

Cry your heart out, it'll clean your face

♪

When you're in doubt, go at your own pace

♪

All love is devout, no feeling is a waste

But keep it to yourself now, before it's too late

In the end it's just you, stop drowning in wait

Your love is useless without it

Cry your heart out (cry, yeah), it'll clean your face

When you're in doubt, go at your own pace

I ain't got too much time to spare

But I'll make time for you to show how much I care

Wish that I would let you break my walls

But I'm still spinning out of control from the fall

Boy, you give good love, I won't lie

It's what keeps me coming back even though I'm terrified

I know that it's wrong

But I want to have fun

Mm, yeah, mm, yeah

I know that it's wrong

But I want to have fun

Mm, yeah, mm, yeah

Oh my God, I can't believe it

Out of all the people in the world

What is the likelihood of jumping

Out of my life and into your arms?

Maybe, baby, I'm just losing my mind

'Cause this is trouble, but it feels right

Teetering on the edge of heaven and hell

Is a battle that I cannot fight

I'm a fool, but they all think I'm blind

I'd rather be a fool than leave myself behind

I don't have to explain myself to you

I'm a grown woman and I do what I want to do

I know that it's wrong

But I want to have fun

Mm, yeah, mm, yeah

I know that it's wrong

But I want to have fun

Mm, yeah, mm, yeah

Oh my God, I can't believe it

Out of all the people in the world

What is the likelihood of jumping

Out of my life and into your arms?

Maybe, baby, I'm just losing my mind

'Cause this is trouble, but it feels right

Teetering on the edge of heaven and hell

Is a battle that I cannot fight

"Lord, don't let me," I said, "Lord, don't let me"

I said, "Lord, don't let me, let me down" (oh, Lord)

"Lord, don't let me," I said, "Lord, don't let me"

I said, "Lord, don't let me, let me down" (don't let me let myself down)

"Lord, don't let me," I said, "Lord, don't let me"

I said, "Lord, don't let me, let me down" (oh my God)

"Lord, don't let me," I said, "Lord, don't let me" (oh)

I said, "Lord, don't let me, let me down"

Oh my God, I can't believe it

Out of all the people in the world

What is the likelihood of jumping

Out of my life and into your arms?

Maybe, baby, I'm just losing my mind

'Cause this is trouble, but it feels right

Teetering on the edge of heaven and hell

Well, it's a battle that I cannot fight

"Lord, don't let me," I said, "Lord, don't let me" (I know that it's wrong)

I said, "Lord, don't let me, let me down" (but I want to have fun)

"Lord, don't let me," I said, "Lord, don't let me" (mm, yeah)

I said, "Lord, don't let me, let me down" (mm, yeah)

"Lord, don't let me," I said, "Lord, don't let me" (I know that it's wrong)

I said, "Lord, don't let me, let me down" (but I want to have fun)

"Lord, don't let me," I said, "Lord, don't let me" (mm, yeah)

I said, "Lord, don't let me, let me down" (mm, yeah)

Pave me a path to follow

And I'll tread any dangerous road

I will beg and I'll steal, I will borrow

If I can make it, if I can make your heart my home

Throw me to the water (water)

I don't care how deep or shallow (water)

Because my heart can pound like thunder (water)

And your love, and your love can set me free (water)

Oh, I have promised I will love you 'til the end of time

Through it all, the good, the bad, the ugly and divine

I will be the melody, the rhythm and your rhyme

All I want is for you to be mine, mine

So can I get it right now? Mmm

Can I get it right now? (Can I get it here?)

Can I get it right now? (Huh)

Can I get it right now?

Let me, let me just come and get it

♪

Can I get it?

You tease me with your control (water)

Because I long to live under your spell (water)

And without your love, I'm hollow (water)

I won't make it, I won't make it on my own (water)

Oh, I have promised I will love you

'Til the end of time (the end of time)

Through it all, the good, the bad, the ugly and divine (so divine)

I will be the melody, the rhythm and your rhyme (mh-mh-mh)

All I want is for you to be mine, mine

So can I get it right now? Mmm

Can I get it right now? (Can I get it here?)

Can I get it right now? (Huh)

Can I get it right now?

Let me, let me just come and get it

♪

Can I get it?

When will you run with me?

Like I know you wanna (like you want to, like you want to)

You're the one for me

And I'm countin' on you (on you)

To put the pieces of me back together

So can I get it right now? Mmm

Can I get it right now? (Mm, mm)

Can I get it right now? (Uh)

Can I get it right now?

Let me, let me just come and get it

How can one become so bounded by choices that somebody else makes?

How come we've both become a version of a person we don't even like?

We're in love with the world, but the world just wants to bring us down

By puttin' ideas in our heads that corrupt our hearts somehow

When I was a child, every single thing could blow my mind

Soakin' it all up for fun, but now I only soak up wine

They say to play hard, you work hard, find balance in the sacrifice

And yet I don't know anybody who's truly satisfied

You better believe I'm tryin' (tryin', tryin')

To keep climbin' (climbin', climbin')

But the higher we climb, feels like we're both none the wiser

So I hope I learn to get over myself

Stop trying to be somebody else

So we can love each other for free

Everybody wants something, you just want me

Why am I obsessin' about the things I can't control?

Why am I seekin' approval from people I don't even know?

In these crazy times, I hope to find somethin' I can cling on to

'Cause I need some substance in my life, somethin' real, somethin' that feels true

You better believe, for you, I've cried (I've cried, I've cried)

High tides (high tides, high tides)

'Cause I want you so bad, but you can't fight fire with fire, oh

Oh (so), I hope I learn to get over myself

Stop trying to be somebody else

Oh, I just want to love you, love you for free

Everybody wants something from me, you just want me

Listen, I know how low I can go, I give as good as I get

You get the brunt of it all 'cause you're all I've got left

Oh, I hope in time (hope in time)

We both will find (we'll both find) peace of mind

Sometimes the road less travelled is a road best left behind

Well (so), I hope I learn to get over myself

Stop trying to be somebody else

Oh, I just want to love you, love you for free, yeah

'Cause everybody wants something from me, you just want me

You better believe I'm tryin' (tryin', tryin')

To keep climbin' (climbin', climbin')

But the higher we climb, feels like we're both none the wiser

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The only regret I have

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I wish that it was just at a different time

A most turbulent period of my life

♪

Why would I put that on you?

That's just like a very heavy thing to have to talk about

But because of that period of time

Even though it was so much fun

I didn't get to go on and make new memories with him

There was just memories in a big storm

I know you've got things to do (I do too)

I just wanna spend all my time with you (feels so good)

I'm so hard to impress, don't leave me on this stretch alone

When I'm out at a party, I'm just excited to get home

And dream about you all night long

I don't know how you got through to me (I'm so cold)

It's all happening so easily (like, oh my God)

It's so hard to digest, usually I'm best alone

But every time that you text, I want to get on the next flight home

And dream next to you all night long

Maybe, it's the way you remind me of (where I come from)

Or how you made me feel beautiful (and then some)

The sight of you is dramatic, one glimpse and I panic inside

I get lost in our hours 'cause you possess powers I can't fight

That's why I dream about you all night long

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All night long

All night

You're driving me away

Give me a reason to stay

I want to be lost in you

But not in this way

I don't think you quite understand

Who you have on your hands

How can you not see

Just how good for you I am?

I know that you've been hurt before

That's why you feel so insecure

I begged you to let me in

'Cause I only want to be the cure

If you don't choose to grow

We ain't ever gonna know

Just how good this could be

I really hoped that this would go somewhere

Complacency is the worst trait to have

Are you crazy?

You ain't ever had, ain't ever had a woman like me

It is so sad a man like you could be so lazy

Consistency is the gift to give for free

And it is key

To ever keep, to ever keep a woman like me

All you do is complain

About decisions you make

How can I help lift you

If you refuse to activate

The life that you truly want?

I know it's hard, but it's not

We come from the same place

But you will never give it up

It's where they make you feel powerful

That's why you think I make you feel small

But that's your projection

It's not my rejection

I put my heart on the line

For the very first time

Because you asked me to

And now you've gone and changed your mind

But loving you was a breakthrough

I saw what my heart can really do

Now some other man will get

The love I have for you

'Cause you don't care, hmm

Complacency is the worst trait to have

Are you crazy?

You ain't ever had, ain't ever had a woman like me

It is so sad a man like you could be so lazy

Consistency is the gift to give for free

And it is key

To ever keep, to ever keep a woman like me

A woman like me

One more time

Complacency is the worst trait to have (woman like me, woman like me)

Are you crazy? (Woman like me)

You ain't ever had, ain't ever had a woman like me (woman like me)

It is so sad a man like you could be so lazy (woman like me)

Consistency is the gift to give for free (woman like me)

And it is key

Hold on

♪

You are still strong

Love will soon come

Just hold, hold on

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Oh, what have I done yet again?

Have I not learned anything?

I don't want to live in chaos

It's like a ride that I want to get off

It's hard to hold onto who I am

When I'm stumbling in the dark for a hand

I am so tired of battling

With myself with no chance to win

(Hold on)

Let time be patient

(You are still strong)

Let pain be gracious

(Love will soon come)

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Just hold, hold on

I swear to God, I am such a mess

The harder that I try, I regress

I'm my own worst enemy

Right now, I truly hate being me

Every day feels like the road I'm on

Might just open up and swallow me whole

How do I feel so mighty small

When I'm struggling to feel at all?

Just hold on

Let time be patient (you)

You are still strong

♪

Let pain be gracious (love will soon come)

Just hold on (you, just hold on)

(You, just hold on) hold on

(You, just hold on)

(Just hold on)

Sometimes loneliness is the only rest we get

(Just hold on, just hold on)

And the emptiness actually lets us forget

(Just hold on, just hold on)

Sometimes forgiveness is easiest in secret

(Just hold on, just hold on)

So just hold on, ooh

Let time be patient

(You are still strong)

Let pain be gracious

Love will soon come, baby

If you just hold on

Hold on, hold on

Hold on, hold on

Just let time be patient

(You) 'cause you're still strong

You're still strong (are still strong)

Just be gracious

Love will soon come

If you just hold on

(You, just hold on)

(You, just hold on)

Just be patient (you, just hold on)

Just be patient (you, just hold on)

(You, just hold on)

(You, just hold on)

(You, just hold on)

(Just hold on, just hold on)

I built a house for a love to grow

I was so young that it was hard to know

I'm as lost now as I was back then

Always make a mess of everything

It's about time that I face myself

All I do is bleed into someone else

Painting walls with all my secret tears

Filling rooms with all my hopes and fears

But oh my, oh my

I'll never learn if I never leap

I'll always yearn if I never speak

To be loved and love at the highest count

Means to lose all the things I can't live without

Let it be known that I will choose to lose

It's a sacrifice, but I can't live a lie

Let it be known, let it be known that I've tried

I'm so afraid, but I'm open wide

I'll be the one to catch myself this time

Trying to learn to lean into it all

Ain't it funny how the mighty fall

Looking back, I don't regret a thing

Yeah, I took some bad turns that I am owning

I'll stand still and let the storm pass by

Keep my heart safe 'til the time feels right

But oh my, oh my

I'll never learn if I never leap

I'll always yearn if I never speak

To be loved and love at the highest count

Means to lose all the things I can't live without

Let it be known that I will choose to lose

It's a sacrifice, but I can't live a lie

Let it be known

Let it be known that I cried for you

Even started lying to you

What a thing to do

All because I wanted

To be loved and love at the highest count

Means to lose all the things I can't live without

Let it be known, known, known that I will choose, I will lose

It's a sacrifice, but I can't live a lie

Let it be known, let it be known that I tried

That I tried

Let it be known that I tried

All your expectations of my love are impossible

Surely, you know

That I'm not easy to hold

It's so sad how incapable

Of learning to grow I am

My heart speaks in puzzle and codes

I've been trying my whole life to solve

God only knows how I've cried

I can't take another defeat

A next time would be the ending of me

Now that I see

That love is a game for fools to play

And I ain't fooling (Fooling)

What a cruel thing (Cruel thing)

To self-inflict that pain

Love is a game for fools to play

And I ain't fooling again (Fooling)

What a cruel thing (Cruel thing)

To self-inflict that pain

How unbelievable (Unbelievable)

Of me to fall for the lies that I tell? (Lies I tell)

The dream that I sell (Dream I sell)

When my heartache, it's inevitable (Inevitable)

But I'm no good at doing it well

Not that I care (I don't care)

Why should anything about it be fair?

When love is a game for fools to play

And I ain't fooling (Fooling)

What a cruel thing (Cruel thing)

To self-inflict that pain

Love is a game for fools to play

And I ain't fooling again (Fooling)

What a cruel thing (Cruel thing)

To self-inflict that pain

No amount of love

Can keep me satisfied (Satisfied, satisfied)

I can't keep up (I can't keep up, I can't keep up)

When I keep changing my mind

(Change my mind, change my mind)

The feelings flood me to the heights of no compromise

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Love is a game for fools to play

And I ain't fooling (Fooling)

What a cruel thing (Cruel thing)

To self-inflict that pain

Love is a game for fools to play

And I ain't fooling (Fooling)

What a cruel thing (Cruel thing)

To self-inflict that pain

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Oh you know, I'd do it all again

I love it now like I loved it then

I'm a fool for that

You know I'm, you know I'm gonna do it

Oh-oh-oh-oh

I'd do it all again, like I did then